Is it worth it?

YAY!  I've been working hard on losing weight and exercising and being aware of everything I eat and drink.  And it has paid off, I've lost 60 pounds over the last year.  I've been feeling so much better and really enjoying clothes shopping 3 sizes smaller than what I've been used to.  It has been great!

BUT, a couple of weeks ago i saw a picture of me from behind and I cried.  Yes I'm losing weight, but the skin that is beginning to sag is horrible.  If I continue losing the weight and basically my whole body is one lose, saggy mess of skin, I don't think I could stand that :(

AND, I began this journey to become healthier and losing the weight is part of that.  But I believe if your are trying to be healthy, you also have consider your mental health.  And I don't believe that I can deal looking like a candle that was left in the hot sun to melt for the rest of my life.

IT'S not that I am that superficial, I'm just afraid that I will die alone.  I don't want to be alone.  I want someone that I can share my life with.  But who would ever find that attractive?  I understand some men like BBWs, others like thin.  But who would like a thin person covered in left over BBW skin?

SO, I can try and get the skin surgery to tighten, tuck, suck and remove the grossness.  I just have to come up with a few thousand dollars since it is cosmetic and not covered by insurance.  Easy peasy...not.  I don't want to give up on losing weight.  I don't want to be alone.  I don't want to look in the mirror and cringe.  I guess I am superficial and self absorbed?