selfish or selfless?

i am always curious about other peoples lives and i am always so happy when i can help with a problem, a question or just be there to listen. i'll do this for my family, for my friends, for complete strangers. tell your problems, your fears, your insecurities...tell me your dreams, your hopes, your joys...im happy to listen.

but sometimes i need to talk too...sometimes i need someone to offer a shoulder to cry on, a smile to ease the pain, a hug to ward off the fear...yet i can not ask for that. i do not want to burden others with my problems or my fears or my tears...and happiness seems far to rare i want to horde the feeling all to myself. im told this is selfish...i thought i was sparing people...

and today i need to talk. today i need to cry. today i desparately need that shoulder. but there isnt one available...so im on my own again...