the road to hell

So much has happened over the last couple of weeks. It’s like my life has been thrown into hyper drive and there is no slowing it down. I’ve made some decisions that have been extremely difficult and trying to the mind, body and soul. At times I’ve wondered if they were ever actually my decisions or those made by others with a heavy dose of manipulation to convince me otherwise. But, the decisions as they are were made and were made with the best of intentions. Now it seems that it has all been for nothing. That it has been a fruitless attempt to obtain some sort of ’normalcy’ in life. How naïve can a person be? How gullible can you be to believe that finally there will be an end to the madness? 

There is a point when one must accept both the blessing and the curses that have been placed in their lives. A time when you have to decide what risks you are willing to take to obtain that elusive, fleeting idea of ’normalcy’ when the conventional, accepted manners are no longer a viable option. What risks can you afford to take in order to end the curse and protect the blessings? Can you do both? Or must you sacrifice one for the other? Past experience shows that you can not have a blessing without a curse. It is a balance between good and evil. But, can a bit of evil be excused to protect the good? When all other options have been doused, is it permissible to take matters into your own hands? The options are few, the outcome unpredictable, but the results may be best for all involved. How do you decide? Remember, the road to hell is paved with good intentions.